"you do something to me..
something powerful and something beautiful
and i'm so scared of it.
i'm so scared... "

We have Appropriated land
We have Burned olive trees
We have Constructed Apartheid walls
We have Dumped our trash on the village of Marda
We have Erased history of Palestinians
We have Falsified the teachings of the Torah
We have Generalized about Arab people
We have Hated people because of their race
We have Ignored the suffering of our neighbors
We have ‘Judaized’ Palestinian areas
We have Killed children
We have Lied about our history
We have Manipulated public opinion
We have Neglected our responsibility to work for justice
We have Obstructed the right of refugees to return home
We have Punished collectively
We have Quietly transferred Palestinians from their homeland
We have Restricted free movement of Palestinians
We have Stolen olives from Palestinian farmers
We have Thwarted peace initiatives
We have Unfairly accused people of anti-Semitism
We have Vandalized
We have Wrongly educated our children
We have eXpunged Arabic from road signs
We have Yelled racist epithets
We have promoted Zionism


We have Acquiesced in things we know are wrong
We have Refused to compromise
We have Initiated false beliefs
We have Encouraged home demolitions
We have Lost our humanity



We have Terrorized the Palestinian population in the name of G-d
We have Aggressively prevented Palestinians from working on their land in the name of G-d
We have Persecuted others in the name of our own persecution and in the name of G-d
We have Used guns and laws to facilitate ethnic cleansing in the name of G-d
We have Assaulted in the name of G-d
We have Colonized in the name of G-d
We have Harmed the Jewish people in the name of G-d

For all these sins we have committed against G-d and our Palestinian neighbors, forgive us, pardon us, grant us atonement.




http://www.iwps-pal.org/en/articles/article.php?id=143

semi rejected
but not effected.

that's the way to be.



whatever. the only reason i want him is because i know i can't have him.

i haven't felt so emotionless. ever.
i don't like anyone yet i've gotten more action from diff ppl in the last month.
4 kisses and uh more the first weekend, 1 kiss second weekend, hookup third weekend, and two semihookups fourth weekend. and yet i'm still not satisfied.
new weekend, new person. that's how it rolls.
and i don't fucking care.
is that wrong? should i care? should i be concerned?
well i'm not.
and i just want to be wanted.
is that so much to ask?

or, you know...get drunk off my ass again.
i feel nothing.

i hate being the third wheel.
i hate sleeping by myself.
i hate watching other people be happy together
while i have such trouble being a) together or b) happy, and sometimes c) a combination of the two.
bside sucked ass.
first time i've gone there with no boy to dance with.
awful.

rachael loses.
the end.

i have nothing important to write.

i just wish i could start my reading...

looking forward to:
sushi
bside
chopstick
sleep

not looking forward to:
next weekend
doing work
chem test
psych test
bio test
sages paper
lab on tuesday

i<3mirah
aaaaaaaand...
tonight is point blue
tomorrow i have class, voter registration, work and hopefully go out
saturday i do homework, work, and hopefully go out
sunday i go to HOB, do homework, and dance party


and i don't want to give up. not yet.
but i will if i have to.
i don't want to end up hurting myself in the end.
i don't want a repeat of saturday night
or sunday night.
if i was sane it would be a harmless crush.

a harmless fucking crush.
oh well.

too bad i'm not a quitter.
otherwise this would be so much easier.

The bruises on my neck began to heal
Though I do admit I’ll miss the way they feel.
Your mouth upon my body helped conceal
Any pain that might have once been real.

It hurts my heart to look into your eyes
Because inside of them I find no lies.
And just because we won’t define new ties
Does not deny this aching in my thighs.

Not you nor I is wanting a new start;
But does that mean we have to be apart?
So I’ll give in, I’ll let you learn my heart
If you agree you’ll also do your part.

And let us lie together, warm and bare.
We’ll still enjoy our casual affair.

please
make
this
pain
go
away.
please
please
please
please.

i'd do anything.
no i wouldn't.
but i might do something.

i just wish i could be happy.
thought this was what i wanted. guess i was wrong.
i don't want to like anyone.
it hurts too much, too much jealousy, too much abandonment, too much fear, too much intensity.
i just want to be happy.
why won't someone make me happy for once....

ce weekend:
work
cia party
homework
gil mantera
homework
work
dance party



i'm very very very very very very excited.

i didn't wanna do a ten year old boy anyway.